Sunday, December 26, 2010

Stuff I got for Zambia















I had an amazing Christmas, as you can tell from the pictures.  I have more pictures on facebook.  
I also got a Marmont Sleeping Bag for 20 degree weather and the one in the picture is for 40 degree weather and only weighs 1 lb.  Not sure which one I am going to take yet. The camelback I might exchange for a solar shower bag.  I got some books, a sewing kit, some spools of thread, an 18 in 1 tool that has scissors, can opener, etc.  I got some travel books about Egypt and Greece, places I want to go after my service.  I also got a gift card for a bookstore and have a list of several books that I need to get about Zambia.  I also went through my closet and started packing up clothes, making piles of clothes to take to, and clothes to donate.  Its weird putting your life on hold for 2 years.  

Be kind to one another.  

Thursday, December 23, 2010

Random Thoughts...

Thought #1

So my older sister has been in a relationship for the past 5 years and they are living together.  She is not engaged but keeps asking me what I plan on doing IF they get married while I am gone.  I told her I don't think I would come back for the wedding.  Not because I don't agree with it or because I want to miss the most important day of her life, BUT because I feel like if I return home the family might focus on my return and not HER big day.  I also don't know how many days I would allowed to be home for, and I know my friends and family would want to get together before the wedding.  I don't want me coming home to overshadow my sister getting married.  Also, the cost of the flight to get back home is out of this world.

Thought #2

The older I get (I'm only 25) the more I appreciate family, holidays and traditions.  Reason behind revelation:
I have been spinning at my gym for the past several months and I sit next to the same girl damn near every time.  We haven't talked until 2 weeks ago, just idle chit-chat-as much chatting that can be done while spinning.  Until last night, we found out that we both used to work for the same company.  We exchanged names and talked about mutual friends we knew.  When she left she wished me a Merry Christmas.  So did most of the other people in the class when leaving.  It made me happy.

Thought #3

I had a dream last night that I was flying back to Colorado before I left for the PC.  On the bus ride up to the mountains, I was telling people that I was leaving for Zambia at the end of January and what I would be doing.  I also was telling them that I have been following PC peoples blogs and a facebook group about other people who are leaving the same time as me.  I told them that I have not found anyone in my area that is doing the PC.  Then this guy told me he was from the Indy area and he too was doing the PC and leaving when I was leaving!!!

Thought #4

I throughly enjoy watching YouTube videos about people opening their PC invitations, staging, life in Zambia and any other videos related to the PC/Zambia.  It makes my heart happy.

Thought #5

Don't worry about anything, instead pray about everything.

Be kind to one another.

Monday, December 20, 2010

ZaMovie: Peace Corps Zambia: Part 1 of 2



This video is amazing. I cannot wait for my life to be like this.
I showed these videos to my mom...she couldn't stop crying.
I then showed it to my sister and my mom cried...AGAIN.


Monday, December 6, 2010

I'm riding solo.

So I'm treating myself to a mini vacation to Denver, Colorado this wed. through sunday.  My cousin and step-sister both live out there and so I am visiting them before I leave in January.  I am so excited for time away from work and spending it with family but this is the first vacation I have paid for all on my own.  I bought the plane ticket myself and this is the first time I will be flying alone.  Everything was paid for by my hard work at the daycare.  And it feels good.  

Be kind to one another. 

Friday, December 3, 2010

Why the Peace Corps?

I have had a lot of people tell me what I am doing is going to be amazing, life changing, a challenge. And I am not doing the PC for those types of reasons.   I have also heard people say WOW! I don't have the courage to do what your doing.  I also have heard...'no offense, but you don't seem like the type of person to do the peace corps.'  OUCH.


Well I feel like putting into words the "why" of this whole process is kind of hard because in my bones it just feels like what should be happening in my life, and verbalizing that kind of feeling is difficult. I've read a couple of others' "reasons" and I feel a sense of camaraderie with what's being said. A list of reasons feels, to me, like justifications to other people. Not necessarily in a bad way, but it doesn't get at the heart of it quite like a couple of quotes I've found:

"I think of my reason for joining the Peace Corps as more of a feeling, a state of being, or a calling that I rationalized with words and that is something you just can't verbalize to someone."
"It's just something I have to do."
The opportunity to travel.  I have been extremely lucky growing up as a child that we were given so many chances to travel.  I remember going on a vacation every year for spring break with my dad to the Cayman Islands.  That started when I was 8 or 9 - on our way to the airport for our first trip to an island, I asked my dad if islands could sink?  I didn't know, I was young and going to a new place.  I have also been lucky enough to experience Europe twice before the age of 18.  I went once on vacation with my family to Italy for two weeks and then went back a year later with my school as a sophomore in high school.  With my high school, we went to 7 different countries in two weeks.  AMAZING. I fantasize about filling my passport with tons of stamps.

The opportunity to do something for someone else that I have never meet before. 
I have been raised pretty well off. I'm not rich, but I've been very fortunate in a lot of other areas of my life. I'm pretty liberal when it comes to politics and I subscribe to the idea of "it's my responsibility to give something back." I know not everyone agrees with this, and I'm starting to be OK with that, but I want to "be the change" so to speak, so I'm starting with me. I can't afford to donate money to charities or my alma mater or start a foundation in my name, but I can give my time, my ideas, and my knowledge. I want to go to bed at night, every night of my life, knowing that I did something to help another person that day. I NEVER want to work solely for the money or for where it will get me, and I NEVER want my occupation to conflict with my morals.  I know that an education is one of the most important things in life.   It gives people opportunities they would never have otherwise, it unlocks and opens doors that weren't just closed before, but were invisible. I love that this is my chosen line of work, and I want to explore an aspect of it that is all at once extraordinary, inspiring, intimidating, formidable, and promising. 

To take advantage of an opportunity not everyone has.
I have been very well taken care of growing up as a child and put through college without myself having to worry about taking out loans or having massive amounts of debt when leaving college.  I figure why not do this amazing, incredible path in life that not everyone is brave enough to take on.  That not everyone is committed to doing something for someone else.  I am OK with doing something that only a select few have done in the past 50 years the PC has been around. 
I'd rather do something out of the ordinary and embrace the path my life IS on than complain about the path it ISN'T on. 

I can't think of a single reason NOT to do this.


Thursday, December 2, 2010

Sleepless in Indiana.


I find myself daydreaming of Zambia in all moments that i’m not busy. I daydream of the friends I’m going to make within the other volunteers.  People I don’t know right now, but will surely change my life. I daydream of Zambian people that I hope will love me as much as I love them. I daydream of the heat and the rain and the feeling of hope that wells up inside of me when i think of the next 2+ years of my life.  I loose sleep at night because of these thoughts...and I'm OK with that.  
I also think that I went to school for 5 years (don't judge) to be a teacher and now I get a chance to share that knowledge with the people of Zambia, but it almost doesn't seem fair....they only get 2+ years of what I know...
will I even make a difference?